Friday, August 23, 2013

Venting/talking through listening or helping

           Lately there have been a few people in my life that are having a hard time with one thing or another. I wish I could help, but I know I can't. I have noticed that when I listen to someone would like to think that I'm helping them. Does just listening really help?
            I have friends that I talk to that just listen to me and its nice to have that. I don't know if I just haven't noticed it before; but I have been personalizing things. I try to put myself in their shoes to see what I would do if I were in that situation. The last little while I haven't been able to successfully do that and come up with a constructive solution. I know there are some problems that their really isn't an answer to. I think my issue is that it makes me second guess what it is that I want to do.
           For the longest time I have wanted to be a councilor for middle school/high school age kids. With what I have seen in the last 6 months with kids in that age range I don't know if I could do it. I don't know what to do. I like to help. It's just who I am. I would like to think that my efforts have some positive results.
          I have wanted to be a councilor since middle school. I detoured from that for a while, but I have decided that I really want to be a councilor. I haven't taken any psychology classes and maybe that is why I feel this way. My minor is in Marriage and Family Studies. I really enjoyed those classes. I would like to continue with that focus. I just wonder if I would really be able to do that job well. Again maybe that is just because I haven't taken any classes to really prepare me for that job. I guess I just don't know what to do. Do I take a couple classes in that field to see if I still want to do that? But then at the same time I don't want to waste money on classes that I wont need. I guess there isn't any way around that.
        I have my bachelors degree and I'm proud to have accomplished that. I'm grateful to have had the opportunity to earn it. Its in University Studies with a minor in Marriage and Family Studies and clusters in Child Studies, and English. What do I do with that degree? To become a councilor I would need to go back to school and get my Masters Degree. I think I'm just feeling a little lost and unsure. I have been thinking about what I'm going to do after Aron is in school. I know its 5 years away, but watching Myla turn 6 and Savannah is almost 5 I know how fast those years can go by.
        I have been asked if Logan is going to start school, and he's not for another 2 years. That question just gets me thinking of what I'm going to do when that time comes. I know I still have a lot of time to think about it. I guess I'm just trying to get my thoughts down and figure out where to go from here.